It’s ok to feel overwhelmed

As I get older, I’m adding more responsibilities to my ever-growing to-do list and sometimes this can make me feel very anxious and overwhelmed. Let me give you a little peek into my mindset:

Simple tasks suddenly start to pile up and I become very aware of how much I need to do. This awareness turns to full blown anxiety and my defence mechanism kicks in. Instead of calmly completing my tasks in order of priority, I ignore all of them. I completely stop doing anything (apart from scrolling on my phone which has apparently become part of my subconscious) This is fine for a day, maybe even two, but after that I have well and truly fallen behind and made life very difficult for myself.

Because of this I have piles of work to finish on the same day, my flat is a mess and I have no clean clothes or dishes. I haven’t been to the one place that will de-stress me (the gym). I don’t have time to see my friends; but I also haven’t cancelled on them because I didn’t want to let them down, so they will be annoyed when I do cancel because now its last minute. My bills are overdue and I owe friends money because I can’t bear the thought of logging into online banking and seeing my balance. I have no food in the house because I never do a proper shop, so I just buy biscuits instead and feel ill. My blog hasn’t been updated for a week, and anyway all the content I do produce I dislike because it’s never good enough. I need to go to bed earlier because I constantly feel exhausted but I have too much to do at night.

What else?

As you can see, it’s pretty easy to become overwhelmed. None of the things I worry about are ever that difficult to do and I know a lot of them will sound silly, its not like I have a child to care for or anything. But even the smallest things become huge in an anxious mind. When I’m feeling like this I can’t have my phone near me because the idea of people texting me and then having more texts to reply to fills me with so much anxiety it makes me feel sick and I prefer to just pretend it’s not happening, same with checking emails.

I’m not really sure what the point of this post is to be honest, I don’t have any solutions for overcoming anxiety and feeling less overwhelmed. I just wanted to write something about the subject because it’s having a big effect on my life at the moment. It’s quite ironic that it’s happening because I’ve been really happy lately but I guess that’s anxiety/depression in a nutshell – it doesn’t care who you are or what’s happening it just pops up whenever it chooses to!

I just wanted to say that it’s ok if you feel like this, because it will pass eventually. Make sure you talk to people that you love and trust about how you are feeling and get some help if you can.

Hannah x

Hannah

  • Katie G

    Thank you for writing this, because it pretty much sum’s up my current mindset. As a matter of fact, I feel like I could have written this myself.
    I simply cannot cope, I cannot keep on top of my blog/scheduling my social media/stupid Instagram and that’s not even starting with my personal ‘To Do’ list.
    At the end of the day, I only get less done and I don’t feel satisfied at all.
    I wish I could offer some advise, I guess what I’m going to do is take a mini break and try to clear everything ‘behind the scenes’ so I can return feeling more refreshed…xx

    • Yeah it’s like there’s a whole other job going on in the blogging community, let alone with our actual jobs and then taking care of ourselves; being an adult is hard! Hope you feel refreshed after your mini break and come back with a clearer head. With blogging I always think if it’s not making you happy anymore then stop doing it, but I find myself missing it when I take a break which I guess is a good sign xxx

  • Melissa O’Brien

    How are you feeling now Hannah? This post pretty summed up my exact thoughts and feelings. I struggle really bad with my anxiety at the moment 🙁 x

    • I’m feeling a lot more on top of things at the moment, thanks for asking 🙂 my running has definitely helped (especially sticking to a plan) and I’ve started being more organised when it comes to looking after myself so I don’t let things pile up. Also taking to people about feeling like this has helped a lot, even writing this post was cathartic! I’m sorry to hear you feel the same, do you have any tactics to combat your anxiety? xxx